Spiraling Downward

The past several days my mood has spiraled downward. There have been pockets of light in the darkness – but not many. I find myself wanting to sleep constantly…and a lot of times I give in to the desire. How do I get out of this horrible pit?

My psychiatrist wants me to increase the dosage of one of my medications, but I’m still waiting to receive the meds in the mail. I’m hoping that this dosage change is going to help stabilize my mood. If it doesn’t, I’m not sure what the next step should be.

My work-from-home job has ended for the school season (I graded student essays), and I really need to find something else to do to help bring in money…and to keep me on a schedule. Without the need to get up for work, I tend to just stay in bed. And I can’t keep doing this – I’ve got to break out of this cycle!

Unfortunately sleep is my coping mechanism. When I feel deeply depressed, or face a task that is overwhelming, or just want to give up…I turn to sleep. I know that this isn’t pleasing to the Lord, and that it’s not a good use of the time He’s given me. But it’s a moment-by-moment struggle for which I need all of the prayers that I can get.

Thank you for reading, and thank you for praying. I really appreciate it. ❤

6 thoughts on “Spiraling Downward

  1. Praying you find a job and that you turn your eyes on Jesus who is the giver of all life and who says: Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.

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  2. Praying for you. Did you ever think of going to Nursing or Assisted living to play and sing with your guitar?? I know you ministered to my Aunt Alice and she loved it. We go to a nursing home once a week and one week the girl we go with took hwer quitar. The people loved it. Just a thought. Love, Barbara

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    1. Thanks Barb, I hadn’t really thought of that. I haven’t played my guitar in years, but it probably wouldn’t be too difficult to pick back up again. And it would be uplifting to encourage others. Thanks for the idea. Love you.


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