I’m not sure what to write about. I just feel like I need to write.
I desire to be creative.
I desire to help people.
I desire to help people with the things that I have learned from the struggles I’ve endured.
I desire to creatively share the comfort and wisdom that I’ve received from walking through my own fiery trials. I want to help others who may be in a similar experience.
I desire to share how God has been with me in my fiery trials; how He has faithfully helped me in every circumstance.
But how do I do this?
I focus so much on the details and on trying to make everything “perfect” that I never actually DO anything to work towards my goals. I never start writing. I never start creating. I’m stuck in an in-between space; a space in which I allow the doubts and the fears and the obsessive thoughts to quench the ideas and passions that have welled up in my soul. Instead of taking that first step and allowing myself to enjoy the creative process, I linger in this in-between space. I let the fear win.
Help me, Father!
I know You have a plan for me. I know Your plan is good and that You know what is best for me. Help me to trust that You know what You’re doing, even when I proudly think my plan is better than Yours.
If You can hold the whole world in Your hands, then You can hold me in this in-between space – doubts, fears, obsessions, and all.
Thank You for always being with me.