Praising in the Valley

I thought I was doing okay. I just celebrated my birthday with my family. I received some thoughtful gifts. My husband took a few days off to spend time with me. But it hit today. What hit, you may ask? Depression did. The force of it overwhelms me at random. It drags me down into…

When Things Don’t Go As Planned

My husband and I were hoping to try IVF (In Vitro Fertilization). Since nothing else was working, we thought it'd be the logical next step for us. But we weren't expecting a crazy "rest" cycle in between. A rest cycle in which I just ovulated today, on day 56. A rest cycle where we were…

A Needed Vacation and A New Cycle

The last month or so has had a lot of ups and downs. We had a negative pregnancy test after our last cycle. It was difficult to take, as we had tried so hard to do everything we could with the many injections, other medications, and all of the ultrasounds and blood drawings. It just…

When Joy Seems Elusive

I've been falling back into the mud and mire of depression. There are numerous reasons for this. The struggle with insomnia has left me extremely tired. The hormone medicine I was taking to assist in achieving pregnancy affected me poorly, leaving me feeling anxious, irritable, and overwhelmed. And I've been experiencing loneliness for some time…

Hope Mixed with Uncertainty

My husband, Roy, and I underwent a second IUI (IntraUterine Insemination) procedure earlier today. We're praying that it will be successful and that I will become pregnant, but there is a lot of uncertainty and doubt. We won't find out if the procedure was effective for two weeks. And those two weeks of waiting will…