When Joy Seems Elusive

I've been falling back into the mud and mire of depression. There are numerous reasons for this. The struggle with insomnia has left me extremely tired. The hormone medicine I was taking to assist in achieving pregnancy affected me poorly, leaving me feeling anxious, irritable, and overwhelmed. And I've been experiencing loneliness for some time…

Freedom Through Surrender

I haven't been feeling well. I've been moody, irritable, tired, and more anxious and depressed than normal. My fertility doctor recently increased my progesterone medication, as the lower dosage I had taken last cycle wasn't enough. It's really been affecting me poorly. Yesterday I had somewhat of a breakdown. After sleeping much of the day…

When God Says “Not Yet”

What do you do when God says "not yet"? You wait. And you listen. And you pray. And you try to rest in His love. That's what I've been attempting to do since I got the call late yesterday afternoon that the IUI (Intrauterine Insemination) procedure that Roy and I had undergone was unsuccessful, and…