Baby Steps Forward

I’ve been having a dry spell with my writing. I very much want to “put pen to paper” and script something that is inspiring – but the words don’t seem to want to come.

Have you ever felt this way?

You have so many thoughts bottled up inside, and yet you can’t translate them into words and sentences and paragraphs. You sit in front of the computer waiting for the inspiration to come…but you’re left listless and despairing. You try to search for ideas on the internet, but none of them quite hits home in regards to how you’re feeling at the moment.

That’s where I am. So I’m trying to push through this writer’s block…and hopefully into a better state of mind.

I’m still struggling a lot with depression and anxiety. I lack energy and motivation, obsess about little things, and get overwhelmed easily. But I must say that God has been helping me. He has surrounded me with family and friends who are there to help. He has continued to teach me the importance of being grateful. And He has encouraged me with His Word and His presence.

So I guess He’s been enabling me to take baby steps forward!

And with this New Year ahead – along with so many unknowns – I can trust that He won’t leave me helpless. I have a God who loves me deeply and who longs to see me flourish under His care.


Photo by Tamara Menzi on Unsplash

Recent Happenings

So I haven’t written in a while. Part of the reason for this is that I was having problems with WordPress…and part of the reason is because I wasn’t feeling inspired to write. But WordPress is working now, and whether or not I feel inspired, I’m going to write. 🙂

I was blessed to be able to celebrate my birthday on Tuesday. We got together with both of our families over the prior weekend. Also my hubby took off three whole days from work so that we could spend some time together and relax. We went to Barnes and Noble bookstore, Cracker Barrel, and the Cape May Zoo – and we enjoyed ourselves. The weather was beautiful, the company was amazing, and it was nice to do something a little out of the ordinary.

It was also a blessing to receive so much birthday love. Many people reached out to me to wish me a special day – and that meant a lot. Sometimes I feel alone and unloved…but I need to remind myself that this simply is not true, and that I have friends and family who care deeply about me. So for the birthday love and the all-the-time love, I am grateful.

Another milestone is that I finished my Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation (TMS) about a month ago. It helped some with the depression, but it also helped my anxiety and OCD through the mindfulness training that I received. Now that my treatments are over, I need to keep up with practicing and with applying what I’ve learned.

So although my mood has been up and down over the past several weeks and I haven’t felt like writing, God has been with me, and has helped me to take one baby step after another. He is good all of the time – and for this I am thankful. ❤


Photo Credit: Crystal Knauss (picture was taken at the Cape May Zoo)

A Dry Spell

I’ve been having a bit of a dry spell with regards to writing recently. I’m not exactly sure why, although I have been struggling more than normal with my depression and anxiety the past week or so. I knew that writing would help me – help me to work through my difficulties, help me to be grateful – but I just couldn’t bring myself to start a post.

Actually, I should clarify that. I did begin several posts, but I couldn’t finish them. Either because of time constraints, lack of energy, or my perfectionism…I ended up not hitting that “publish” button.

And right now, as I sit here in front of my computer, I feel stuck. Stuck regarding writing…I want to write, but I just don’t know what to write about. And stuck regarding how I’m feeling…I feel like I’m in a deep, dark, and muddy pit. Have you ever felt this way?

I talked to my Mom about it, and she said that this can happen to a lot of writers. Your inspiration dries up for a bit. But it’s a process…and I should be able to learn and even grow through it. I just wish I could skip to the learning and growing part!

But I know she’s right. God has me where He wants me at this point in time. And I need to trust Him – trust His heart of love. And trust that He has a purpose in this. I need to get back to taking those baby steps, and to focusing on things to be grateful for. And my Father will carry me through.

I just wanted to say thank you to my readers – I really appreciate you, and I hope you are doing well. Thanks for reading even when I don’t have much to share. You give me a reason to keep trying! ❤

“Writing about a writer’s block is better than not writing at all.”
― Charles Bukowski, The Last Night of the Earth Poems

Photo Credit: Joshua Sortino