Another negative pregnancy test.
I stood dazed in the produce section of the local grocery store after the call came in this afternoon – the nurse notified me that this past cycle was unsuccessful. I continued to stand there for a bit, watching with blurry vision as people pushed their shopping carts around the aisles.
I called my Hubby to let him know. I spoke with my Mom and told her the news. And I texted other family and friends who have been supporting us on this journey.
I was hopeful that this would be a good cycle, as I had undergone an HSG (hysterosalpingogram) earlier on to determine if my fallopian tubes were clear – and they are. This was good news. And the doctor also told me that an HSG can sometimes clear out any residue in your tubes that might be hindering conception, giving you a better chance. Well, it didn’t work this time…but at least I know that my fallopian tubes are unblocked.
Truthfully, I just feel drained. Discouraged and drained. My hopefulness about the cycle had kept me a little more energized than normal…but when I received the news, all of the energy came gushing out. The fertility process itself is exhausting – especially when it culminates in a negative pregnancy test.
I’m going to try to set up a phone call with my doctor to see if he has any new suggestions. The nurse had mentioned that there were different shots I could take that might help with my FSH (follicle-stimulating hormone) levels, but we have to wait to see if our insurance will cover them. Also, one of the ladies at the front desk had told me that because we would like to try IVF (in vitro fertilization) but can’t afford it, they could possibly check to see if they have any donated IVF meds to give to us. So we have a few options to look into.
But mostly, we just need to stay positive and keep trying. And keep trusting in God – a God Who knows us intimately and loves us completely. And a God Who is continually working for our good, and His glory.
P.S. Thank you for everyone’s prayers…they mean a lot. ❤
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