Weighed Down


I’m feeling fairly anxious today. Different things have happened, and just the cares of everyday life are pulling me down. It’s like I’m trapped under a pile of fall leaves, unable to uncover myself. The leaves are light in weight–in that, the situations that cause me to worry are not large in magnitude. But when they all collide on top of one another, and on top of me, they make it very difficult to breathe.

I have had so many ideas for posts to write for my blog recently, but I have had to settle for writing the ideas down, and hoping to flesh them out when I have more time. This makes me sad, because I like to write about things when they’re fresh in my mind, so that I can hopefully capture all of the details and meaning involved. But the ideas, as well, have been piling up, and I haven’t been able to return to them.

I was blessed with being nominated for two awards for my blog yesterday (my first ever awards), and I was SO incredibly excited. I started to complete the necessary tasks for accepting the awards, but ran out of time and was not able to finish them and get them posted. This makes me sad, as well. It was something that gave me such great joy, and yet I couldn’t find the time to express that in my blog. I will finish these posts, but as of right now it just hasn’t happened.

It’s so easy for the cares of life to weigh you down. It’s so easy for everything to pile up and suffocate you. But somehow, I know there must be a way to manage it all.

I’m thankful for the walk that I was able to take today with Daisy–the air was fresh and crisp, and it rejuvenated me. I love being out in nature; and I love seeing Daisy happy. It was so cute to watch her jump in some of the piles of leaves that were amassed on the side of the road. It made me smile. 🙂 I need to grab onto that smile, and hopefully it will carry me through the rest of the day.

But I know that ultimately God is the One who will–who already IS–carrying me through. I want to control everything and make sure that it works out all right, but this is my Father’s job–and He is an expert. He can and will orchestrate the details of my life in such a way that will bring about His best for me and my family. My job is to trust…and to let go.

Hidden Blessings

Daisy after a good long walk. :-)
Daisy after a good, long walk. 🙂

My puppy, Daisy, has gotten me started on a new routine lately: taking her outside for (almost) daily walks around our neighborhood. At first this was a chore for me. I don’t exercise much, and trying to keep up with her would make me tired. Also, I felt a little scared to be walking around without someone to walk with me. Another deterrent was that my feet would hurt when we got home! But I’m starting to see that favorable things are resulting from it.

I wouldn’t say that I look forward to our walks each day, but I am definitely becoming more accustomed to them. I enjoy the fresh air, the sights and the sounds, and the movement of my body as I walk down the street. And Daisy certainly enjoys the opportunity to get out of the house, pull me along with the leash, and sniff all of the smells that she can reach! 🙂

God allows things for a reason. Although at first I was annoyed by the prospect of walking Daisy regularly (she normally would just run around in our backyard), I’m learning to adjust to–and even appreciate–the opportunity to get outside and spend some time with my puppy, and ultimately with my Lord.

For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord. They are plans for good and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.

Jeremiah 29:11 (TLB)