Category: Faith

When I’m With You

“When I’m with You
I feel the real me finally breaking through
It’s all because of You Jesus
Anytime anywhere any heartache
I’m never too much for You to take
There’s only love
There’s only grace
When I’m with You”

~ Citizen Way

I’m so glad that I can be myself with God.

Yesterday and today were rough days for me. I struggled with a lot of anxiety, obsessive thoughts, and depression. But thank the Lord that He was there with me, walking beside me every step of the way.

I can share with Him every doubt, every worry, every fear…and know that it won’t be too much for my Father. When I come to Him with these burdens, He pours out His love and grace on me. And I can feel peace in His presence.

If you are struggling with feeling like you need to put on a facade before the Lord, just remember that He knows you and loves you just the way you are. He is aware of our hang-ups, and He will bring us victory in those areas as we rely on Him.

When we’re with Him…we have everything we need.

Everyone Has a Story

If everyone has a story, what is mine?

What is it that God wants to use me for in this world? Right now, I feel somewhat useless. Although I AM a wife, a daughter, a granddaughter, a sister, and a friend – along with being a daughter-in-law and a sister-in-law, among other relationships – I still wonder…

Wonder what it is that I’m here for.

I love to read and to write. I love to help people. I love nature. I love to travel and see new places. I love animals. I love coffee and tea. I love enjoying time with my family and friends. But is that enough? How do all of these things come together to enable me to accomplish the personalized plan that is “my story”?

Right now I feel kind of stuck. I’m making my way through each day with God’s strength. I’m going to ECT (ElectroConvulsive Therapy) and to see my psychiatrist, praying that God will continue to help me overcome my depression and anxiety. I started a new work-from-home job which I am very grateful for…but again, it doesn’t feel like it’s enough.

God, am I enough for you? Am I enough for the people who are in my life? What is it that you have for me?

I know what the Bible says. Although I will never be “good enough” in and of myself, I have been washed clean of my sins by Christ’s blood – and made His precious and beloved daughter. In Him, I am enough. In Him, I am whole. In Him, I can become the unique person that He made me to be.

I am blessed to have these precious promises. But truthfully…I’m having a difficult time believing them. I don’t feel like they are true. I don’t feel like they apply to me. I’m just not feeling it.

However, I know that it doesn’t really matter how I feel. What matters is that I have faith in what God has said to be true. And I pray that I’ll be able to do that.

“For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.” ~ Ephesians 2:10