Hope Mixed with Uncertainty

My husband, Roy, and I underwent a second IUI (IntraUterine Insemination) procedure earlier today. We’re praying that it will be successful and that I will become pregnant, but there is a lot of uncertainty and doubt. We won’t find out if the procedure was effective for two weeks. And those two weeks of waiting will most certainly be difficult ones.

A second IUI. A second assisted attempt at becoming pregnant. A second opportunity for hope…but also a second possibility for failure.

I know that this is only our second try with the help of a fertility specialist. I know that there are many people who have struggled for long periods of time attempting to get pregnant. And I know that years ago you were required to wait much longer to discern if you were pregnant. But somehow that knowledge does not substantially ease the anxiety and uncertainty of the waiting. I must strive each moment to be grateful. And I must repeatedly remind myself that this process is in God’s hands, and that He will accomplish His perfect will. In the end, that is what I need to be seeking…even more than desiring to have a child.

So, imbued with the Lord’s strength, we will wait, and hope, and trust – even in the midst of the uncertainty.

Is there something that you are waiting and hoping and praying for? Is there a certain relationship/dream/situation that you’re having difficulty relinquishing to God – so that you can rest in His perfect plan and timing? I’d love to hear your story. Please feel free to share in the comments section. And thanks so much for reading! ❤


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In This Very Moment

Father, I need You.

Right here, right now,

In this very moment…

I feel overwhelmed.

My heart is racing;

My breathing is choppy;

My thoughts are out of control.

I feel like the weight of the world

Is on my shoulders –

But I know that it’s not.

Questions abound,

But no answers are forthcoming.

What would you have me to do?

Father, I need You.

Right here, right now,

In this very moment…

I need Your rest for my racing heart.

I need your calm for my choppy breathing.

And I need your peace for my out-of-control thoughts.

I know you are there.

I know you see and hear and care.

I know You are Who You say that You are…

And I need You. ❤


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Blessings to You!

A profitable meeting at DVR (Division of Vocational Rehabilitation) regarding possible job training opportunities. A lovely dinner gathering with great friends around a table of yummy food. And an enjoyable time at church handbell practice, during which I met two goals: have fun, and be “okay” with making mistakes.

Yesterday was a good day! And I have a lot to be grateful for. 🙂

Thank you to anyone who has sent prayers and/or positive thoughts my way. They are much appreciated! And I would just ask that you would continue to pray that I would remain grateful and hopeful during the difficult times, as well.

Blessings to you! ❤

Photo Credit: Liane Metzler / Edited By: Me