I’m frickin’ angry.
I’m so incredibly tired.
I’m at a complete loss for what to think and how to respond to my continued inability to sleep and to the way it’s making me feel right now.
I want to just keep eating and eating this “comfort food.” Why not? It makes me feel “good” – or at least “okay” – for a few rotten moments…and then it bites me in the butt.
I need You, Daddy. I need You, my “Abba,” my gracious Father…I need You desperately. I know You’re here with me, but I’m having a hard time “feeling” Your presence. I wish You could physically embrace me so that I could “experience” the comfort of your touch…but I can only “sense” Your strong (yet gentle) “arms” around me now with “tingling skin” of faith.
Where are You, God?
Are you in this fiery trial with me, or have You left me all alone?
I know the answer. I know the truth…
I am not alone. You are right here with me, in this fire. Protecting me from the effects of the billowing flames.
You’ve been here before. You’ve felt what I’m feeling. You understand completely.
I am known and loved.
I am cherished and adored.
I have worth.
I have value.
I am fashioned in Your image, and you have declared Your creation of me as “very good.”
I am Your “masterpiece,” …Your “poem”!
You are writing my “story” – the story of my life.
You, the Creator and Sustainer of the Universe, care about me…and You care about everything that concerns me!
You are incredibly and delightfully and utterly GOOD –
All of the time. Now and forevermore…
My Faithful Father. 💜