Tag: control

What I DO Know

Thoughts, racing.

Worries, spiraling freely.

Can’t seem to get myself under control.

I don’t know what’s going to happen.

Don’t know how things will turn out.

It’s hurting my heart,

And I don’t know how to make it stop.

I wish I could see the future–

To see if everything is going to be okay.

But I don’t have that luxury.

I don’t know what is going to happen;

I don’t know how things will turn out.

Is there anything that I DO know?!

I do know that God is with me.

I do know that He will be my guide.

He will lead me through this,

Through the twists and the turns…

He will be there.

I do know that I have a support system.

People who love me and who are praying.

I do know that I am not in this alone.

Father, be my Peace.

Be my Guide.

Be my Everything.

I can’t do this on my own.

YOU are the most important factor in this situation;

And I throw myself upon Your grace, upon Your mercy, and upon Your love.

I need You–and I am not ashamed.

Photo credit: Dustin Scarpitti

Weighed Down

walking-shadows

I’m feeling fairly anxious today. Different things have happened, and just the cares of everyday life are pulling me down. It’s like I’m trapped under a pile of fall leaves, unable to uncover myself. The leaves are light in weight–in that, the situations that cause me to worry are not large in magnitude. But when they all collide on top of one another, and on top of me, they make it very difficult to breathe.

I have had so many ideas for posts to write for my blog recently, but I have had to settle for writing the ideas down, and hoping to flesh them out when I have more time. This makes me sad, because I like to write about things when they’re fresh in my mind, so that I can hopefully capture all of the details and meaning involved. But the ideas, as well, have been piling up, and I haven’t been able to return to them.

I was blessed with being nominated for two awards for my blog yesterday (my first ever awards), and I was SO incredibly excited. I started to complete the necessary tasks for accepting the awards, but ran out of time and was not able to finish them and get them posted. This makes me sad, as well. It was something that gave me such great joy, and yet I couldn’t find the time to express that in my blog. I will finish these posts, but as of right now it just hasn’t happened.

It’s so easy for the cares of life to weigh you down. It’s so easy for everything to pile up and suffocate you. But somehow, I know there must be a way to manage it all.

I’m thankful for the walk that I was able to take today with Daisy–the air was fresh and crisp, and it rejuvenated me. I love being out in nature; and I love seeing Daisy happy. It was so cute to watch her jump in some of the piles of leaves that were amassed on the side of the road. It made me smile. 🙂 I need to grab onto that smile, and hopefully it will carry me through the rest of the day.

But I know that ultimately God is the One who will–who already IS–carrying me through. I want to control everything and make sure that it works out all right, but this is my Father’s job–and He is an expert. He can and will orchestrate the details of my life in such a way that will bring about His best for me and my family. My job is to trust…and to let go.